Tuesday, July 5, 2016

Its been a while! A whole school year to be exact...

Hi lovely's!

Today I just wanted to talk about all the lovely change that has happened in my life this last year. I kinda needed this year to really reflect on myself as a teacher. As a human being and my self constricting tendencies to my ultimate potential.

I was challenged a lot this year, put down a lot this year. If you knew me in person you would understand why criticism is probably the hardest thing for me to handle but more so when it is blatantly to make me feel like I am crap!

In the end everything worked out for the best!

I chose to transfer at the end of the school year! It wasn't a easy road for me to find another teaching positions because some powers at be didn't want me to succeed! In the end some near and dear amazing people vouched for me and helped me land a FIRST grade position at a new school! Yes I said it I will be teaching FIRSTIES! I am so excited but am terrified at the same time the last two years of my life have been KINDER KINDER KINDER! I have taught first grade before but only the last half of the year so I am beyond where I should start at the beginning for First! BTW my school is literally 5 minutes from my house not even! I don't even need to get on the free way!

As far as FAMILY we have been a busy couple of  humans! We have literally been going nonstop since summer started! Prepping for the big boy to be in 2nd grade! Getting pretty girl prepared for PREK! Next year is going to be AMAZING!

Now lets talk about what really messed with me my DEPRESSION. I became overly depressed this last school year I struggled to be a better teacher, mother, wife ALL of it but  at some point last school year I felt like I failed! So I gave up and was an empty soul just there always cranky always irritated about nothing just about not being who I know I can be!

Around May I decided I was done letting DEPRESSION win Don't get me wrong it will always be waiting for me! ALWAYS but I'm practicing how to be more aware and how to be more there to the world. The first step for me was facing my FEARS! This book has helped me so much!

It was recommended by a long time Youtuber that I watch daily! She really is an inspiration for me she has her own business and 5 kids and a hubby! She keeps here house on point majority of the time but is so fearless in the sense she is herself!

Today is the beginning of the beginning for me! Its time to keep my dreams ALIVE! I have always really wanted to have a blog and a TPT store and I am doing it! While being a mother, wife, and teacher!
To end this post here is a quote that I keep posted in my phone!



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